I feel so overwhelmed at times. I thought my years of "faithful service" would prepare and sustain me for the time I see us headed for. Yes, I'm a "crazy conspiracy theorist", but I've seen so much come to pass. I'd go to conventions and wonder why the gb wasn't giving more details. I have my own theories now. But now, instead of land and provisions, I'm living barely paycheck to paycheck. I lost my livelihood due to the pandemic and getting back on my feet has been next to impossible. The quarantine was like being dfed all over again. All my coping skills were now made illegal. I see so much correlation between how the gb controlled us and how this "cult of science" with Gill Bates at the helm does the same.
I'm scared. "Jehovah's organization" was going to sustain me. But that was a lie. I know my Father loves me and I do believe Jesus is alive and well and poised to return. I believe that it is the wicked who will be removed and being left behind (just like Noah) is what we want. But I feel so woefully unprepared. I feel lost. I see the love and compassion of people cool around me in ways I couldn't have imagined a decade ago. I see people just blindly follow. And idk what to do.
Private prayers are always appreciated. Our Papa knows who I am.
God bless.
I'm scared. "Jehovah's organization" was going to sustain me. But that was a lie. I know my Father loves me and I do believe Jesus is alive and well and poised to return. I believe that it is the wicked who will be removed and being left behind (just like Noah) is what we want. But I feel so woefully unprepared. I feel lost. I see the love and compassion of people cool around me in ways I couldn't have imagined a decade ago. I see people just blindly follow. And idk what to do.
Private prayers are always appreciated. Our Papa knows who I am.
God bless.