Your experience is very similar to mine. I totally gave up on organized religion and went directly to God. His Holy Spirit is the only teacher. People that try to teach usurp the Spirit. Men can preach but they cannot teach or give the understanding. As Paul said , “I plant and Apollos waters but God gives the increase. 1 Corinthians 3:6-7 , Isaiah 54:13 , 1 John 2:27 The posts I write here are a product of this spiritual principle. Some of them seem hard or even unbelievable but that is a result of the Holy Spirits restoration of all things, the Elijah to come, restoring the truth in the end of the age elect saints. Continue what you began and put your trust and faith in God, not men.